Mothers Day Thoughts = A lesson in loving

When I was in Medjugorje in 1990-  I had what I call a lesson in loving From the Lord.

Our group were being assigned to rooms. I was assigned  a roommate who was nearly blind. I was told she needed help getting around, and would I care for her? Normally I would welcome caring for this person, but here I was for the first time in my life in Europe, and on a special pilgrimage. I just wanted to be free, to come and go as I pleased. I began feeling resentful. I was thinking”Of all these people why did they put her in here with me?” I soon was to find out why.

As we entered our room, I sat on my bed feeling sorry for myself, almost to the point of tears, when suddenly; I heard these words very clear. I’m not sure if they came from my heart, but they came from somewhere inside of me.” Here is your mother.” It was a man’s voice. I believed it to be Jesus’s voice. As soon as I heard the words “Here is your mother,” I began to weeping,  because with the words came knowledge of the meaning. I knew the Lord was answering a prayer I had prayed for many years. After my mother died in 1975, I was heartbroken. In my prayers over the years, I expressed to the Lord many times, “If I had the chance to do it over again, I would have spent more time with her,” I would have done so much more for her, because I missed her so much.” I did not realize how much I loved her until it was too late. I was working full time, with a large family to care for- those were my excuses, but excuses are no consolation when the person you love is gone. It took me a long time to get over my mother’s death, so the words “Here is your mother” came alive to me. I knew the Lord was saying to me,”I put this women in your care treat her as if she were your mother.” I felt comforted, and I smiled, because I knew the Lord wanted to heal me from the guilt I had been feeling all those years. =   To be continued